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My mother’s diagnosis of early onset dementia was not a shock to us. It was something that we really had to push her to figure out what was going on. Once the diagnosis was given, it was almost a relief for us. We weren’t just imagining things; there actually was a problem.

Now, six years later, the struggles are increasing. My dad is stressed out, trying to take care of her and manage every aspect of their lives. The only time he gets a break to breathe and relax is when a family member comes to visit. …

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Let me start by saying I love Spring. I really do. Watching new growth emerge and seeing the bare trees dotted with bright new green leaves fills me with wonder each and every year.

Every day, I walk around the yard, searching for new beginnings that I may have missed the day before becomes my routine. I constantly check on my berry bushes and fruit trees to see if they will rebound from the harsh winter weather we had.

But, unfortunately that’s not all that emerges.

I knew better.

I did.

Yet, I never seem to learn my lesson.


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Financially, 2020 sucked for me and my family. It seemed as though every penny we made had to be spent on different things. Each week we would have to budget just to make sure we had money for gas and food and bills.

By the time Christmas rolled around, I was mentally and emotionally exhausted. Since there was not a lot of money to spend, buying Christmas presents was almost out of the question which took away any Christmas spirit I had.

I was miserable.

If you look up different ways to save money, there are so many out there…

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This last spring I threw down some sunflower seeds right outside my carport. All summer long, as soon as I stepped outside I was greeted by beautiful colorful flowers.

But what about winter?

When all the beautiful flowers die, and it’s cold outside, everything is drab and brown. As an outdoor person, winter can be hard to get through. There are days when it seems as though spring will never come.

My saving grace?

My Camelias.

We Miss Dead Gary.

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I think growing up, everyone has that one mean old neighbor who gets pissed off at the littlest things.

For me, it was our next door neighbor. If you even stepped on his lawn he would threaten to call the cops. We used to do it on purpose just to piss him off and wave as we took that one step onto his lawn before laughing and running off.

Well, I think I’m turning into that neighbor.

We bought our property a little over a year ago. One of the things we love about it is how quiet the area…

Being Aware of All the Blessings

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It’s strange how different this new year is from all the others for me.

As soon as I woke up and went outside, a sense of hope and gratefulness filled me as I sipped my coffee. It was so profound, that I wished that every day was started that way.

That’s when I realized, it could be, if I wanted it to. It’s all in the mindset.

That first day after spending time with the family, we gathered around the fire and sat silently, watching the dancing flames. …

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My mother was diagnosed with early-onset dementia years ago. I first noticed when I talked to her one day, and the following day we had the exact same conversation word-for-word.

It’s heartbreaking watching the strong woman who lived for teaching and taking care of children to be so physically healthy, yet her brain slowly started dying off.

It was heartbreaking when her pride took a hit and she didn’t want anyone to know, including her own siblings. Even though we explained that it’s not something to be ashamed of, it was something that was kept a secret for a while.

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One of the reasons I love writing so much is because I love reading so much. There is something special about getting lost in a story.

What I noticed this past year as I look back on the stories I’ve written are that my favorite ones are ones that tugged at your heart strings. One that comes to mind is:

This story is so not what I was originally going to write, but it’s where the characters took me. I think I was close to tears as I finished writing it.

Another story was one written about a family during…

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So, checking my dismal stats after the first day of the new year, I wasn’t expecting much. My views and reads were just about normal, yet the amount I made was…


What the hell is going on?

Now, I know I need to do more to get my stats up, but really? How exactly does 19 reads equate to $.04?

This is not the way I want the year to start.

At this rate, I’ll make enough to buy a coffee from a gas station. Wait, not when you consider the $5 membership fee. …

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Every year, I look back on the previous year to see where I failed and where I succeeded. This helps me plan my yearly goals.

This past year was a bit of a crap shoot. I wouldn’t say it wasn’t a success, because in many ways it was. It laid down the foundation for what I want to achieve in 2021.

But while most people make resolutions, I do not. I make goals. What’s the difference?

Goals are adjustable.

I take my yearly goals and break them down into monthly goals and then further into weekly goals, daily goals, hourly…

Stefani Vader

Lover of reading and writing. Hater of retail work. Small fish in a big pond, learning as I go.

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