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I Seriously Need A Face Filter
Somebody help me!
You see, I work in retail. Not only that, but I’m part of management which means I get to handle all the stupidity, all the problems, all the hard-to-handle customers. And, I’m okay with that.
I have a ‘customer-service’ face. No matter how irate someone is, or what words fly out of their mouth, I am able to smile and be pleasant.
But, beyond that, I have no face filter.
If I don’t like you, you will know. I’m not going to waste my time being fake around you. I’m not going to smile and pretend like I’m happy to see you.
If you piss me off, you will know. My face will heat up and I will clamp my mouth shut while my mouth filter fits into place.
If you’re annoying me, you will know. I might roll my eyes, I might turn my back to you. Why?
Because I have no damn face filter.
I know some people can’t help the way they are. It is not their fault that I’ve had a bad day and they are grating on my last nerve. They may be trying to vent while I’m trying to get work done.
Whatever the case is, I turn my back. Because I have no face filter. They will know exactly how I am feeling just by seeing the look on my face.
I don’t want to hurt their feelings. I don’t want anyone to change for me, or pretend to be someone they’re not. That’s not what I want.
But, I also know how rude it is to turn my back on someone. So, what can I do? I’m not a fake person; that’s just not me. I’m not a mean person; I won’t go out of my way to hurt you.
I need a damn face filter so that when put into place, I can be who I am, and others can be who they are without me turning my back to them. Gah! It’s such a predicament.