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Pushing Through Discouragement

It’s a marathon, not a race

Stefani Vader
3 min readDec 6, 2020
Photo by Jaco Pretorius on Unsplash

Lately I’ve been struggling with every aspect in my life.

Imagine this. I’ve got a pitcher of water which would symbolize my time and energy and desires. There’s four cups in front of me that symbolize work, family, daily chores, side projects (desires).

I pour a little bit of myself into each of these cups every single day. My pitcher of energy is waning with everything I give as I trickle it into all four cups, but the hope is there that eventually, those cups will fill up and I can rest.

But there’s a problem. Each of those cups have a tiny hole in them, so no matter how much of myself I pour out, those cups never seem to fill up.

That is how I’m feeling.

Every day I go to work, I work my ass off. There’s so much to do it is physically impossible to get it all done. I would need several more hours every shift.

Every day I do my best to spend time with the family. As the kids grow older, I feel like as hard as I try, they slip a little further away.

Every day I spend time trying to get the dishes done, the laundry done. Is there something cooked for dinner? Have the chickens been fed? The dog walked? I could spend my entire day working on stuff around the household…

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Stefani Vader
Stefani Vader

Written by Stefani Vader

Lover of reading and writing. Hater of retail work. Small fish in a big pond, learning as I go.

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