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Standing On the Sidelines of an Addict’s Journey of Self Destruction
One of the hardest things to do when related to, or are friends with, an addict is to stand back and watch them self destruct.
The problem is, no matter how much you want to help and have the means to do so, if they aren’t ready and willing to accept the help, it’s worthless.
Right now, I’m standing on the sidelines, watching and waiting to be tagged in. I want to get in there and help fix the problem, but the person doesn’t. It hurts my heart to know that they are surrounded by people wishing that she would let them help her, but refusing it all.
Now it’s spiraling out of control, and there’s not a damn thing I can do. She’s been through hell and back ten times over in the past six months. I completely understand the reason she relapsed.
But, damn! Let me help you.
All I can do is be there. I can offer my support. I can offer to get whatever help she needs. I can hold her hand and stand by her through the process. But until she wants the help, I sit here waiting, hoping and praying that her rock bottom isn’t as bad as I fear it’s going to be.